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| i dunno if anyone reads this, but watever......i dunno.......there was one thing i was so sure of, and that was my friends, and where we stood.....but now.....everything its starting to go downhill.....maybe its me.....or maybe.....i just need new friends....maybe its time to change my environment, i feel like eversince i got into college my life [social/friendship wise] has gone downhill.....my friends are hangin out all the time and mostly w/o me, not on purpose i think.....like most of the time i say i wont go, bc i dun think i even belong there anymore, they have their own lil clique now, that involves ppl i didnt hang out wit b4, and somehow it bugs me, yeah probably im not open minded...or i dunno....i feel so deppressed.....like the other day one of my friends told me that it seemed like i didnt give a s**t about the whole not rooming with her or going for the summer term, like i didnt care.....and now like my friends dont even talk to me on the phone, i call em, like 100 times and they call me like 1 time and act all weird....like they dont wanna talk...so i just ......i dunno screw it.....i feel so out of place lately....like the naw ruz party, i literally almost cried, i didnt belong there, there was NO ONE i could sit there and talk to/hang out with/chill nothin, its not like i didnt know anyone, its more like no one wanted to talk to me......the more i think about it the more i realize the problem is ME....its irritating, i write and re-read wat im writting and i sound like a freakin victim..maybe im a victim of my own misery...midlife crisis or something lol.....morelike mid-teen crisis....more like ending-teen crisis......i dunno......there's nothin to look forward to anymore...maybe i;ll ask some other friends to hang out....maybe then i can feel some fresh air.....or somethin....maybe haifa/college would work out...i dunno.....depressing entry.....im out | | |
| - alrite so im very broke.......that makes a statement........and i got into collge, im having my 2nd interview with haifa.....pretty nervous... although i should be very happy.......stuff lately have made me kinda. upset.......umm im pretty pissed...im angry....i dunno if its the fact that im starving but im in a very bad mood.......im out........
nice entry huh
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Ok so thats us like last friday in starbux...."THE PLACE TO BE" lol not really, well today i was checkin my old email and i still keep on gettin emails from ppl, i dun get em, i tell em i changed it and they keep on sendin the junk, but i think its kinda good cuz all i receive is fwds so its good....anywho i go to my junkmail and i see that the BWC wrote again, i hadnt heard from them since like a month ago.....but this time they want a second interview, which is the medical interview....i still havnt grasped the fact that there is possibility that i might go there...it still hasnt sinked in....and like UCF keeps on screwin my application status....its such a mess...and FSU that school hasnt sent me a response...im so in the verge of an emotional breakdown lol...theyre so slow, the BWC is a lot quicker i tell ya...theyre as fast as lightning...alrite im out
R.I.P David Martinez | | |
| R.I.P DAVID MARTINEZ.......the world will miss u man! | | |
| GOIN TO THE BEACH!!
paz | | |
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